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Jen Joslyn
I do not regret the things that God put me through, they have made me who I am today. I was raised catholic, constantly having religion shoved down my throat. My dad was never helpful growing up because he use to beat my mom and me. He never touched my sister and for a long time that bothered me. I use to take the beatings for my mom until the day I slugged him back. That was also the day I realized that for all the religion my grandparents through at me— God was not there and if He was, He hated me.

I did everything I was supposed to and worked hard to please God, but my dad was still abusive and we were still poor, and problems were still there. So I gave up on God and religion and quickly went from atheist to Wicca; I knew there had to be something out there. My parents finally got divorced and that’s when my mother decided she no longer wanted to be a mother, and all the abuse my father gave her was because of me. So she began to abuse me. She never hit me, I think it’s because she remembered that day that I was able to take dad down in the midst of him hitting me. My life was falling down the tube and I had nothing. I had lost my innocence and I was stuck in dead-end, unloving relationships that just continued to take from me and use me, while still practicing Wicca.
One day, my friend conned me into going to a production of Heaven’s Gates, Hell’s Flames: that night I accepted Christ. My life began to change, my father started to be a real father, my mother stopped blaming me for everything and my sister and I became best friends. I even found a place to belong in Intervarsity and at a church when I came here to college a few months later. During all of this my boyfriend at the time also became emotionally and mentally abusive. I broke it off with him about one and a half years after I was saved; when God made things obvious to me by allowing him to almost hit me: after my life, I got good at makeing sure a punch missed. That was the end of that. I had a little talk with Jesus at that time and realized that things would be changing, so since then I have stepped back and let God take control; He has been the mover of my life; He has used me to do great things on and off campus and He is still keeping my life rocked and fired up for Him. I do not know what the future holds for me, but I know that with God ALL things are possible!
God Bless!
Love,
Jen
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